I'm so sick of not being able to write! I've been staring a a blank page for hours and I have nothing.
I've been re-reading the last few chapters of my book over and over again but I have nothing. There is so much going on in my head that I don't know how to think straight anymore, ironic right? All I want is a clear head. All I want is for the fog to clear up so I can look at my life and see what's really going on so I can work on it and fix it. But this fog seems to get thicker by the hour and at the end of the day, my eyes hurt from squinting. I rarely say this but I hate this. I hate feeling the way I do right now. It stops me from working on myself. I don't have any patience and all I want to do is sleep. But I want to be productive but whenever I focus on one thing, everything else seems to fall apart. I don't even want to complain. I want to be positive and I know that it will eventually pass and I'll feel better but I don't want to wait. I need it to get better now. Every time I get knocked down I feel like this is what's going to keep me down. I always feel like I can't take anything else and I feel like giving up. But I can't. I can't give up because I don't want to. But I have to be honest, it's not always easy to keep going. Right now I feel angry with myself because I'm trying to pull myself up but I can't. Whatever I try, doesn't work and it irritates me. I am tired of fighting because I feel like that's all I ever do. And I'm so sick of these tears that I can't control anymore. i was watching a movie yesterday and it wasn't even that serious but I had tears in my eyes and that's something that doesn't happen. I don't cry for movies but I couldn't stop it yesterday. I just want to be happy, that's all.
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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