And so a new chapter of my life begins...
Everything I have been trying to prepare myself for, for months now is over within moments. The end of a chapter; a heartbreaking one at that. So here I am, beginning a new one, where I am in total control. So what am I going to do with this? Go with the flow and see wherever life takes me or am I finally going to take full control and steer my life in the direction I want to go? Of course my answer isn't just to end up wherever, but am I strong enough to guide myself towards what I want? I am strong enough, but what is it exactly that I want? Maybe that's what I'm supposed to be doing right now. Maybe I'm supposed to figure that out. I want my happiness back. I'm tired of feeling heartbroken and I'm sick and tired of tears so how about I make my life easier? I'll stop putting myself in situations I know will break my heart at the end. I've been through enough, more than enough. I deserve happiness and that's what my goal is. I'm going to make sure that every decision I make will only add to me being happy. Note: happiness is not a destination, it's a way of life... Who was it that said that? Does it matter? I'm going to find myself and find out what I truly want. I'm going to live for me and my beautiful daughter who needs me to lead the way to a happy life. I'm in control of this next chapter and I'm going to make it epic! I have friends by my side who've become my family, my sisters and they are teaching me things about myself I couldn't see (refused) about myself. I looked in the mirror this afternoon and I saw tears running down my cheeks but I saw something I can't really put in words. But I saw strength. I'm stronger than ever before and I feel great. Now, I'm done focusing on whatever it is that hurt me. I'm going to focus on the future. I'll try my hardest to keep focusing on the future and everything that's yet to come. I'm here, I earned my spot and I'm going to take advantage of each and every day because this moment right here, will never come back. So I'll have to make the most of it.
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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