When do you know you've had enough? Is it when you're mad and angrily decide that you don't want 'it' anymore, whatever that 'it' may be?
Or is it when you calm down and decide that you want something else? When I was mad I decided I had enough and that I wanted something else. When I calmed down I knew I wanted something more than what it was then. Anger is just a temporary emotion where as love for someone goes much deeper and it will stay longer so once I completely calmed down, I tried to find ways to find that something else in what I wanted to give up on. I kept trying even though I was still hurting and new things happened that hurt me more. Even though I had 'decided' that I had enough, the truth was that I didn't. I couldn't decide that. I wanted to and I tried but I couldn't. This morning I realized I had enough because I felt it. I was on my way and when I followed the same way back, I thought I had never seen those streets before, until I saw a purple bench I came across earlier. Then I knew it was the same street but I didn't recognized anything else, even though I had been there three minutes earlier. That made me think about those moments I've had the last couple of days. I can't remember certain things, mostly because I'm not focused. I'm not paying any attention and I hate it because I try so hard. I've spent most of my weekend sleeping because I'm tired, exhausted. So when I came home this morning I took a deep breath and somewhere in that breath I realized that I've had enough. The last few months have been difficult but now that it's affecting me in a whole new way, I need to take away the situation's power to control my mood and be the boss of my own life again. I need to stop allowing things and situations and people to change my mood. I love myself enough to know that this is not what I deserve. I love myself enough to know that I should do something before this gets out of hand. I'm working on me, every day and it's not always easy but it's worth it! Let me know what you think in the comments below or send me an email via the contact page. Or talk to me on Twitter/Facebook/Instagram. Don't forget that you are your most valuable piece of art. Spend time on yourself, meditate and love yourself! You deserve at least that.
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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