A very long time ago, somewhere in high school, I used to write poetry. I used to enjoy writing those poems but I'd keep them hidden from everyone.
I haven't for such a long time and I couldn't figure out why I ever stopped. After a while I completely forgot about it. My poetry was empty. I couldn't pour my heart into them. I couldn't even put my feelings on paper. Why not? Because I never learned how to accept my feelings; my reality and my fault. Because with everything that I've been through, I know that I'm not an angel and that I wasn't this innocent little girl who never hurt a fly and just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. No! But, the other day I was beat and I couldn't keep my eyes open and since my daughter was already asleep, I decided to sneak a little nap in there too. No matter how hard I tried not to think (that's the problem right there), I couldn't fall asleep. But once I did, I started dreaming. I was reciting a poem. I told the empty chairs my true feelings. Right after, I was searching for a pen and a paper but I couldn't find it. Then I woke up (5 minutes later) and I wrote it down. I fell asleep right after and didn't read it since then. Until this morning. That poem doesn't even matter. It was the moment I dreamed about it. I remember that dream. I was standing tall and I was sure of every word that came out of my mouth. I felt strong. That moment I was able to accept what was going on in my life and finally let it be what it is. Truth is that it's nothing anymore. There is nothing there to keep fighting for or to keep feeling sad about. So since there's nothing there, why hold on to it? You can't even hold on to nothing. You'll just look like a fool with your palms up, holding on to air... Stupid right? I must say, I love who I've become. I love who I'm becoming. I've grown a lot over the last (almost) two years and growth is everything! Strive to grow every day and you'll be fine! I promise. Keep being honest with yourself. Don't sugarcoat anything for yourself because you're not helping yourself with that! Accept your reality, you can't change it. But you can change your future. Make yourself better so your future can be better as well. One more thing: let go of what you can't change and let go of what isn't worth holding on to anymore. Let me know what you think in the comments below or talk to me on Twitter/ Facebook or Instagram. You can also send me an email by going to my contact page. Hold on to the things that matter.
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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