The other day I was talking to somebody about my past. The reason why I’m not able to really move past certain things…
One event in particular. I’ve accepted what happened and I cut ties with every party involved except for one. That’s also the one person I’m unable to forgive. I like to say that I have but whenever this topic arises, I get angry and I always end up crying. Not because of what happened. Not because of the person who was to blame for what happened but because of that one person who stood there and watched. I can’t help but think about what I would’ve done or what I would’ve tried to do if I was that person who saw what was going on. I can think of 20 things that person could have done. I’m not saying that this person did nothing. They did. But when you see that that one thing you do doesn’t have any results… you try something else, right? Or maybe that’s just me. Even writing about this… Why can’t I just forgive this person? Why can’t I just accept that what they did was all they might have been capable of at the time? Or that maybe they just felt like they were doing enough? I’ve forgiven everyone except one. I want to forgive this person too. I really do, but I don’t know how. Maybe I also feel like they don’t really deserve to be forgiven, but that’s not fair. They also deserve to be forgiven. It’s not easy and I really don’t know how I’m supposed to start but I know I’ll get there. I have to forgive them for myself. They probably don’t even know that I haven’t forgiven them yet. It only affects me. Are you having a hard time forgiving somebody? Or have you been in a similar situation in the past? Please, share your thoughts and experiences in the comments. Or email me by filling in the form on my contact page. Or talk to me on social media – links in the sidebar. I’m a work in progress, as I should be!
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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