I’ve said this countless times before, but it is time for me to put myself first. It’s time for me to choose ‘ME’.
All those times I said I would, I wasn’t in the right place. First, I had to LEARN how to love myself. I had to GROW and look at my reflection. Only then, I saw what I wanted to change. You can say that you’re not happy with yourself but if you don’t take the time to look at yourself first, how can you ever find out what it is exactly that you want to change? I put everyone I love before my own needs. At least… I used to. I can say that I used to because I am working really hard to change that. For me, that doesn’t mean giving them less… it means giving myself more! I can honestly say that I love myself enough to give me everything I need. I allow myself the tears in order for me to move past my pain. I allow myself to rest if my head or body needs it. Sometimes I need a break from life and I now realize that that’s ok. So I just crawl in bed with my laptop and I watch Netflix until I fall asleep. You know, everybody puts themselves first in a completely different way. For me, it mostly means that I spend time figuring out my true feelings. I have to deal with my emotions and not give someone else’s feelings more thought than my own. Putting myself first means that I have to be happy. If I’m not happy with something, it has to change. Yes, I still doubt my feelings sometimes. I still care a lot about other people’s feelings but I also know that putting them before me doesn’t help either of us. If I really care that much about them I have to be honest with them too. With everything that’s been going on in my life I have a lot to think about. I’m slowly growing stronger and choosing ‘me’ is becoming less difficult each day. It shouldn’t be difficult at all. It should be the easiest thing to do, to choose yourself! But our hearts are so big that we want to make others happy and somewhere along the way we get caught up in everybody’s search for happiness and forget our own. That will probably always be the case, a little. But I hope that I will not forget about my own. Something I had to repeat to myself A LOT is that I’m important too and I deserve to be happy! After a million times that message finally got stuck in my head and now it’s not just something I know, it’s something I believe! Something I live by… YOU are important! You DESERVE to be happy!! Please leave your thoughts in the comments or talk to me on social media --> links in the sidebar. Orrr email me by going to the contact page and filling in the form. Choose you! It’s worth it! ;)
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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