I’ve allowed anger and pain to run my life for a long time. I didn’t have anything else. It came naturally to me to live like that. But then I reached a point where I wanted to change that. I wanted to be happy and I made sure I did everything I could to break those walls that I had built because I became their prisoner. I had to fight that voice in my head that kept telling me I wouldn’t ever be something.
I had to change the way I looked at life, myself, others… I had to change my entire view on everything. I had to cut open my scars in order for them to heal properly so it would stop hurting. It wasn’t easy but hey, look at me now. I did it. My wounds started to heal and not having to live with pain made it possible for me to start living. I allowed God back into my life and I left that place of self-doubt, anger, pain and depression behind. I haven’t felt depressed in such a long time I don’t even know what it feels like and believe me, not knowing feels sooooooooo good! I can remember how I felt but I can’t remember what it feels like to wake up like it and the random thoughts, etc. What I have to do now is fill the gaps which used to be filled with all that negativity with positivity. I decided to focus on positive things this year. I am going to make sure that I see the beauty of the world and the good things in my life. I’m planning on going places this year. I want to see place I haven’t seen. I want to show my daughter how to focus on all the good instead of the bad things in life. I stopped watching the news. I’m one of the last to find out there’s a war going on. I’m the last to find out but I don’t care. Watching the news and seeing everything that’s wrong with the world doesn’t make me happier and since I have the privilege to choose if I see what’s going on in the countries that are at war or not, I choose not to. I can’t deal with negativity. It sucks me in and it makes me depressed and I choose to stay as far away from it as possible. I also stay away from people who make me feel bad. I stopped following a couple of people on social media because I don’t want to read what’s bad in their lives. But also the people I hang out with. If talking to you always makes me feel bad for you or makes me feel bad about myself then I choose to stay away from you. I want more positivity in my life and I will make that happen! Are you with me? Please share your thoughts in the comments or send me an email -> Contact page -> contact form. Like Straight Thinking on Facebook. @ Straight Thinking. Let’s make the next year a positive one!
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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