While we were getting ready to leave the house yesterday I asked ‘how do I look?’ a few times. I asked how my hair looked, how I looked in the outfit I was wearing. Which shoes would fit better. If I hadn’t put on too much make-up. Even while we were out, I asked it again. I kept looking in every mirror I passed. Only when we got home and I looked in the mirror while I took my jacket off I realized what I had been doing that whole day.
Why did I need so much confirmation? I know how I look in those jeans. I know I liked the way I had done my hair. I loved my look. So why did I need someone else to love it before I would step outside? There are days where I don’t even care one bit and I jump in one of my sweatpants, put my hair in a bun (not the ‘perfect’ messy buns you see on Instagram) and bring my baby to day care. Other days I spend some time to do my make-up, dress up. But that’s all for me. I wasn’t trying to look good for anyone but myself. Or was I? Even though I want to answer that question, I know I won’t like the answer. Yes, I think I was trying to look good for someone else. That can’t be. I won’t accept that. I refuse to let someone else determine my value. I refuse to let someone else decide how good I feel. I look good and if I know that, why would I need someone else to tell me that before I feel good? You can’t let nobody else make you feel good. I know I’ve talked about this before but I can’t stress this enough! You are in charge of how you feel, as you should! Look in that mirror. You are beautiful! It won’t matter if the whole world calls you beautiful if you don’t believe that. So make sure you believe it. Because once you do, you don’t need one other person to tell you how good you look because you already know! I’ve been gaining some weight lately. I told myself I would start to lose weight a few months ago, I went the other way. I had to buy bigger jeans and it made me feel a little insecure. I’m not proud of myself because I let myself go. But there are two thing that I can do right now. I can go sit in the corner and cry with a bowl of ice cream on my lap or I can start taking care of myself again. I’ve decided to start taking good care of myself again. I’ve been looking for someone who can train me because if I go to the gym by myself… I won’t push myself enough. But that’s not the point! I’ve decided to make myself feel good. Planning on going to the gym again, makes me happy! Why? Because it’s a first step. This morning, I was getting myself ready and I looked in the mirror. I smiled. I hadn’t done my hair yet, I threw on the first shirt I saw. There was nothing special about my look. But I smiled. Because I know I’m beautiful. I don’t need anyone else to tell me that. I kicked my own ass last night because I couldn’t believe I allowed myself to feel so insecure! I woke up feeling a lot better and stronger and more beautiful than ever. Wake up, look in that mirror and say ‘Good morning beautiful’. Say it until it doesn’t feel awkward anymore. Don’t stop there. Just make it part of your ritual. 3 words. Do it before you put on your make up or whatever. Don’t wait for that ‘good morning beautiful’ text. You should put that smile on your own face! Don’t wait for anyone else to put it there! Talk to me! Let me know what you think and/or share your experiences in the comments below. You know you also email me, right? Go to my contact page and fill in the form, it will go straight to my phone so I will read it first chance I get. Follow me on Twitter and Instagram @uGottaLoveAimee I know I don’t say it enough, but thank you for being here.
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