Whenever I set a goal for myself, I expect 100% of myself. Like I said last week, if 75% is my best, it’s enough, but I have a hard time accepting that. I still want that 100% and if I can’t reach that, I give it up all together.
The thing is, I need to give myself time. Just knowing that I have to change something doesn’t mean it’s changed the next morning. I’ll have to work on myself, allow myself to change. But change needs time. I need time. Something I’ve been spending years on to perfect, in this case being hard on myself, is going to take a while to become something else. I’ve been working on building my walls higher and higher for as long as I can remember. They didn’t just fall over one day. It took a while before I learned how to get back on that ladder to take down the highest brick. 1 brick. I had to rewrite my strategy every single time I went up to take down another brick. That goes for everything. We’re not furniture from IKEA, we don’t have a manual and even when we finally found out how to do something, the next time you think you’re in the same position, you will find out that the way you handled it last time, won’t work. We need to think on our feet if we want to fix these things. I want to see myself perform at my very best. But if 60 or 75 or 93% is all I can do, I need to be able to accept that and BE OK WITH IT. There’s a big difference between accepting a situation and being OK with the situation. I have accepted a lot. Because I can’t change most of it; it’s not up to me to change it or it’s not in my control. That doesn’t mean that I’m OK with it. If I could, I would do something about it. If it were up to me… You know, you deserve time. You can’t expect perfection because perfection isn’t even possible. We’re human and there’s nothing wrong with that. Expecting your best is good and it’s something you should keep doing. Just don’t expect more than what you can do at that moment. I know I want to be good at everything I do. I doubt myself a lot and for some reason I think that I should be able to be a pro from the start. Crazy, right? Rome wasn’t built in one day. Please let me know what you think in the comments or send me an email -> contact page -> contact form. Or talk to me on twitter @uGottaLoveAimee. If there’s a topic you want me to write about, let me know. I’m a work in progress, just like everyone else. We’ll be alright ;)
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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