Everybody has baggage but nobody wants to pay extra because they packed too much. So what you do, you pack your bags carefully, weigh it at home and take out whatever you can miss to get the weight down, because you don’t want to pay extra. It’s easy.
When you plan on getting into a new relationship, you need to pack lightly because over packing means you will pay the price. Not only when you get into a relationship but for yourself too. Less weight is easier to carry. Your baggage isn’t just a suitcase full of clothes. So it’s not as easy to get rid of extra weight. But you need to work on it. Way before you think about getting involved with someone else. If you still carry all the weight from your life, your relationship will collapse eventually. You can collapse too. At some point, keeping all that weight of all the things ever happened on your shoulders will eventually cost you. Maybe you’ll get depressed. Maybe you just can’t do it anymore. For some, the price may be higher than for others but none of us are the same. Neither is the weight we carry. I’ve learned that I had to get rid of my pain the hard way. I kept holding on to everything that ever happened to me. I tried to forget. I wanted to shut it out of my head but instead of blocking out the bad things, I started blocking out everything else. I couldn’t remember the smallest things like what I had for breakfast THAT DAY. I couldn’t remember my appointments and stopped caring about everything that mattered. I slept through the day so I wouldn’t have to face my mother or sister (or anyone else for that matter). I gave up on life. I just didn’t want to live my life anymore. I wished for a different life. A life where I could feel good about myself and nothing bad ever happened. I wanted a fairytale. I know now, that holding on to that weight will only put you in a deeper hole. I wanted to get out but had no idea how. As you know, I started writing these weekly entries. They’ve helped me in a way that’s still amazes me. I got rid of weights, small and big, that I didn’t even know were there. It’s been such a chaotic mess on my shoulders that I didn’t even want to look into it to fix it. But I’m happy I did. It’s ok to carry some things with you. But don’t hold on to everything. Everything is a lot. Everyday something happens and if you keep holding on to all the negativity in your life you will become nothing else but negative. I know this because that was me! I was negative all the time. I wouldn’t smile and I didn’t care about what anybody thought of me, because I was building my walls so high that I was looking through a bunch of clouds. Nothing was clear to me then. I got rid of the weight my ex put on me but I didn’t forget. I will never forget, but what happened is in the past. I can keep looking back but I’ve already been there, so why would I want to keep revisiting that painful situation? I don’t but even if I would, it won’t hurt anymore. I threw that pain away. I let go of the feelings that came with it. I’ve never felt so light in my life. Is your baggage to heavy? How are dealing with it? Please, share your thoughts and/or experiences in the comments. Or send me an email by going to my contact page and filling in the form. Or talk to me on twitter @uGottaLoveAimee We’ll be alright! ;)
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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