If I’m honest with myself I know that writing this blog every week is just a little too much right now.
I have reminders and alarms and still, I end up stressed every week because I don’t know what to write about. There is a lot going on and it takes a lot of time and energy to deal with those things. I created so many projects for myself and honestly, sometimes I regret most of them, just because they take up so much of my time. As for this blog... when I started I had a purpose. Right now I write because I have to. A little while ago I said I wasn’t giving up and I’m not. But I am taking a break. I need to get back to myself and I need to find my reason again. Why did I want to write? What happened to me when I wrote? What needs to happen when I write? Because honestly... not much is happening anymore when I’m writing my entries. I promised myself that I wouldn’t write out of obligation. I used to write because there was no way for me to live if I didn’t. That’s still somewhat true, because looking at the story I’ve been writing... I’ve been writing page after page after page like it’s nothing. I dream about the story and the story plays in my head all day long. I wouldn’t know what to do if I couldn’t write but when it comes to my blog... it’s the opposite. I’m not writing a week in advance anymore. It’s been months since I had 2 entries or more ready for the following weeks and kept writing until I had so many unpublished entries that it was starting to get ridiculous. I want that feeling back! When I wrote so much that I had to go back and take some of it out because it was getting way to long. As long as I don’t feel like I HAVE to say something, I won’t speak. Maybe I just need to finish the projects I’m working on now and get rid of the clouds in my sky. Maybe that will be enough for me to get back to where I started. So for now... I need to turn those alarms and reminders off. As soon as I found my will back, I will be back! 😉
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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