It's official!! I'm moving! I get the keys to the new place by the end of the week. I'm excited (she said without showing the tiniest bit of emotion).
I am excited. I'm happy that it's finally here because I signed the papers in the beginning of May! A lot of my excitement has disappeared already. But I can't wait for the end of the week. I already bought the floor and I bought new chairs for my dining table. I'm still not sure what to do with my walls but I might just leave it all white. My next focus is new curtains and slowly I'm starting to see what it will look like. I never changed anything about my current apartment because I knew I didn't want to stay here. So I'm excited because this will be the home we'll stay in. That's not it. I'm also excited about moving because this is just one step closer to the stability I want and need for us. So much has happened during my baby's short little life and she deserves peace. So let our home be the base for that. The place she can always come back to and the place that's safest. From there we'll build our life the way we want it. It's time for me to give her (and myself) the life she deserves. She deserves so much more than what I've been able to give and build for her. But that's all going to change. We're leaving this house with all of the bad memories. We're starting over. I know that moving isn't a guaranteed new start but in this case it is. I'm leaving the house of my past relationship behind and that is also something big. I'm not taking much of the furniture we had back then. I already replaced a lot. I even sold the bed. Moving is just a part of my process to move on and heal. I'm aware that it will take a lot more than just a new address but I know that this is a good start.
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