A while back, I kept getting teased with happiness. I got little tastes of it but as soon as I started to feel comfortable it in, something would explode in my face and left me to believe that 'happiness just wasn't for me'.
Thats the biggest BULL$#*% I've ever ... heard; come up with; ... what do you mean happiness just isn't for me? No happiness is for me! It's for everyone. Not one person was born to be unhappy and miserable. This twisted and messed up world is what makes us unhappy and miserable. Doesn't mean that it's right! But less global because if I start talking about the misery on a global scale... well, I wouldn't know when to stop because that... grrr Back to me and my twisted ideas. I deserve happiness. I've always deserved it but I didn't know how to not blame myself for what I went through. I didn't know how to ask for help and I didn't want to talk to that stupid therapist that just wanted to collect their money and get rid of me and my problems because... well who would want to listen to my problems? Now I know that even if I have blame, I shouldn't make that big enough so it will suffocate me. Now I know that I should ask for help and that those therapists are there to help (most... not all - with their stupid question 'how does that make you feel' which works for some people though... just not for me). I have learned to accept myself and I had to learn how to see myself. Really see myself. Even though my life feels like an absolute mess and I'm tired and even though I feel like this is the last that I can take before I break into a million pieces, I believe that this is temporary and when this passes my life will only get better. You deserve happiness! It starts with you and how you look at yourself and your life. It's in there but you just have to dig it up. Happiness is for all of us!
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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