Finally, everything is finally falling into place. I'm embracing the fact that I'm single and I'm making the most of this time. Just me focusing on being a better me.
My baby is going to school which is giving me some (read: a lot) more time to study and go to the gym. I'm moving to a new place, perfect location, first floor... backyard!!! The perfect place to build a home where we can stay! I've made new friends that I enjoy myself with. I'm going on vacation in a few weeks. The relationship between my mom and me has never been this good. I've dropped bad habits. I started meditating. I'm starting to get closer to God again. Aaand then my bucket overflowed and I broke down. I've been saying it for months. I knew I would eventually break and I was trying to keep it from happening but I didn't know where the last drop would fall and when it did... I wasn't ready. My mom and her husband have been really supportive. They're practically making me spend the weekends there so I can gecharge a little. My new therapist sucks because she's not serious and I feel way to young. I'm tired all the time and if you give me a bed (or a chair, who cares) I'll sleep. I keep forgetting to eat and even if I don't I don't really feel like eating. My dreams are so real that I question my memory. I cry a lot. At everything, really. A stupid commercial on tv can even make me cry. I'm a mess. I'm a burned out mess. Packing up the place so I can move has never been this hard. I still haven't even packed my bag to take on vacation (Both are in the same week by the way). Everyday things are so stressful. I'm so exhausted. Old and painful memories are coming back. A lot is happening right now and I think I should take this time to really get past everything; really deal with everything. Maybe, just maybe there's a peaceful future waiting for me... I really hope so because with how I feel right now, I don't think I can keep living this stressful and painful life. It has to stop. If you have any tips on how to deal with this, or are there any articles you think I should read? Please let me know, I could really use some help right now.
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