I feel better! I'm not sure how my mood shifted but I know what I did...
Something that may seem stupid but usually does a lot for me is changing my playlist. I picked a new one and started listening to new songs. I went against my will and went to stores I usually don't go to because of the distance... I went to my mothers house with public transportation even though it took me 1 hour and 33 minutes to get there and back. I dyed my hair... I bet all of those things and the smaller things I did to change up my day changed my mood. I also opened up to someone close to me about everything that happened. I allowed myself to cry and after all the tears were out... I started to feel better. The person I opened up to reminded me that I've been through a lot and that it isn't crazy for me to break down every once in a while. She reminded me of how strong I've been these last few years and of how strong I had to be. Thinking about everything and thinking about how I've handled these situations gave me strength and I started believing in myself again. I'm not saying that I'm on top of the world right now but I've got the strength to keep going. When I told my friend that I wanted to stop feeling two weeks ago, she told me she was scared for me. That alone was a wake up call. To be honest I don't want to stop feeling. I want to feel. I just want to find a way to deal with the pain so it doesn't hurt anymore. I'm confident that I'll find a way! It won't be easy but life isn't easy, if it was I wouldn't even write. There is a lot of change happening in my life right now and now, for the first time I'm looking forward to it. I can't wait for my vacation in June! I was worried about my baby having two weeks off school this month but now I'm even looking forward to that! I have a few things planned and I'm excited about it! I couldn't be happier that I lost that cloud above my head. It was weighing me down in every way possible and I feel so much lighter now that it's gone. The lesson that it taught me is that I should just change things up when I feel down. It worked for me now so why not try it again if this happens again? When you go through a cloudy period in your life, what do you do to make yourself feel better? Please share your thoughts in the comments below or send me an email by going to the contact page. Or talk to me on Facebook, twitter or Instagram - links are in the sidebar. I'm not going to tell you that I hope you have a good day (which I do by the way), I just want to let you know that you're loved. I want you to know that this is just a storm and it will blow over! Don't give up!
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
July 2017
|