It's been a while since I felt stressed. I mean really stressed. There's alway a little of that 'healthy' stress that everyone gets now and then but how I felt those days...
I got into an argument which went out of control. Neither of us was calm enough to stop arguing so someone else came to end the war. I thought I was just mad and a little later I felt so overwhelmed with anger which I couldn't express that I started crying. It was the only acceptable way to let some of that anger out of my system. The following days I started to develop a headache that only got worse when the day went by. I got a toothache because I kept forcing my jaws shut in my sleep and my whole stomach started acting up. I didn't sleep much and I kept waking up from every sound I heard. I even had the attention span of a gold fish!! It took me a while before I connected them all together. Once I found out what the problem was I started to realize how serious stress is and how it can affect you. The last few months have been pretty much peaceful. I haven't stressed and I've been focused on the only things that matter, myself and my growth and my daughter and her happiness. It shocked me to see the effect that stress had on me because I thought stress didn't affect me. Why? Because I didn't know any better. Stress has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. It's something that I at some point even believed I couldn't live without... sad right?! But looking at my life now I see that I can. I can live without stress and I feel so incredibly happy. Maybe that's why I got so restless. Stress is a disease! It will eat at you. It will break you down if you don't do anything about it. Believe me, I realize that I got off easy this time. Because I'm such a control freak when it comes to my mental state that I don't accept anything to mess with it, I was able to figure out what was going on and put a stop to it. But it wasn't always that easy. Stress ate at me for years and I didn't know how to deal with it... sometimes I still don't. I'm just trying random things and I just happen to get lucky once in a while. No, let me take that back. I do try random things but it's not luck. I work hard to keep myself positive and happy. If I wake up feeling sad or something, I do everything in my power to change my mood. It doesn't work every time but believe me, I can count the bad days of the last three months on 1 hand. It used to be the other way around. I was counting the good days... and now? I lost track of how many good days I've had! Stress is a bacteria. You can let it grow and become an illness. You can let it become the thing that slowly takes away your energy and your positivity and your will to live... or you can check up on yourself to see how you're feeling and to try and make the best of each day. Focus on the good. Focus on everything that makes you happy and I know, when you're overwhelmed or drowning in stress you have no clue of what will make you happy. But start there ... Now ask yourself this: What makes you happy? Don't you dare to say that you don't know! Figure it out. Don't give up on that question until you found your answer. What makes YOU happy? And once you answered that question... go after what makes you happy!
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