I wanted to write a letter to my younger self but what is the point of that? My younger self isn't ever going to read that. But maybe someone else does...
So here is my letter to everyone or anyone who might need it. I know it might seem like I don't know what it's like to be you, which I don't, but I know what it's like to feel like who you are, is never enough. I know what it feels like to always want to change and be like someone else. I know what it's like to wish that you were someone else. I also know what it's like to finally accept yourself. I don't know you and I have no idea what you're going through. But I know that you're not alone. You're not the only one going through this. Whenever I was going through something, I always believed I was the only one in the world going through it. I believed that nobody understood me. So I kept it to myself. Not wanting to seem strange or make people think I was making it up, because to me it felt crazy. Let me tell you, you're not strange in any way for feeling what you're feeling or for going through something. Just understand that you're not alone. Maybe the people around you make you feel like you're alone but we have this great thing called the internet these days where you can connect with others. Where you can share your story and hear from others. I know I felt better about myself and my situation once I found out other people my age were battling depression. I didn't feel so alone anymore. You know, it's important to understand that you have to go through it in order for you to be able to deal with it. But getting through it means that you'll eventually win the battle. Don't give up on yourself. Find your anchor and pull yourself back up. One thing that helped me get through everything that happened was that once I found my anchor, I refused to let go. I hated my life and I hated everything I had to deal with. I got to a point where I was on the edge of giving up. Several times. God pulled me back. I refused to take the life he gave me. I knew that the life I was living wasn't the life I was meant to live. I knew he wanted me to do great things. I'm not saying I've done everything right in His eyes but holding on to not wanting to dissapoint Him like that, kept me from giving up. But that didn't stop me from being depressed. I stopped being depressed after I had decided to change my life. After I decided to become happy. It took a while but once I started to tear down those walls and deal with my pain, my sky started clearing up. The gray sky I had gotten used to started to clear up. I'm getting emotional right now and to be honest, these tears I'm trying to hold back are happy tears, mostly. I've been through so much and I didn't ever believe I was strong enough to get through it. I thought I wouldn't ever find happiness. Never did I expect to turn into such a strong person who became her own anchor. I'm not special. If I can get through all the crazy stuff I've been through, so can everyone else! If I can turn my depressing thoughts who kept me down for years around into motivational thoughts, so can anyone else! Everyone else! All you have to do is tell yourself that you are done being a victim. Tell yourself that you are done being depressed and sad. Tell yourself that you are strong enough! You deserve happiness! You deserve all the good and you need to start seeing yourself for who you are. Not for who you think the world wants you to be. Because there's only one person in this world that can be you, and that's you! Being you is enough! Being yourself will be the best feeling in the world. Being your happy self, will be one of the greatest feelings you'll ever experience! I think I needed this letter too more than I thought. We all just need to realize that we are working on ourselves, for ourselves. There's no better cause. Love yourself, do right by yourself. Grow and become the strong indiviual I know you can be. Believe in yourself! I know I do.
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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