I have been looking for answers for everything this past year. I wanted to hear or have an explanation for everything that ever happened to me. I wanted to know the things nobody else cares about.
I have been wondering what kind of child I was. What kind of person was I growing up? Because I can’t remember what I was like. What I liked to do… My grandmother told me she has never in her life wondered what she was like. Because it wasn’t important to her. She knew who she was from her memories and that was enough. But I take things a little bit too far sometimes and I want to know more. But I am not the person I was last year and definitely not the person I was 20 years ago. I am me, right now. But next year, I won’t even be the same as I am today. So why should I keep holding on to who I was? I stopped asking questions. Mostly. Asking questions is what made things in my family worse. Not having answers was hurting me. But asking questions was hurting others. Sometimes it’s just better to let go. But I got answers. Not all the answers I was initially looking for but the ones I needed to move forward. I can’t keep holding on to the past and move forward in any kind of way. It has been a long journey and it came with a lot of pain but that gave me a chance to heal the way I was supposed to. I’m happy I made the decision to work on myself. I’m growing each day and I couldn’t be more proud. But something that was important for me to heal and grow last year, doesn’t need to come with me for the rest of this journey. Something I needed yesterday can even start slowing you down today. You need to figure out when to let go of something. For instance, I need to let go of all those questions I had back then. I also know that it’s time for me to focus on something else. Something that has been bothering me for 5 years but only realized this past week. I said that I moved on and I forgave all parties involved. In some way, it’s true but I haven’t forgiven completely and there is one person that I haven’t forgiven at all. I don’t need to forgive for all of them. I have to forgive them, for me. And in order for me to heal and move on from this the only thing I can do, is let go of everything that has become irrelevant to the wound I’m trying to focus on now. Sometimes you just have to let go and focus on something else. Because if you hold on to the same thing for too long, it will become a whole different problem. Something you can put on the bottom of your “to-do” list. We’re trying to cross everything off, not add anything on. You’ll know when it’s time to let go. Because you’ll feel at peace with it. I know I do… Don’t get me wrong, I’m not schooled for this and I can only tell you what I think, how it worked for me. IF it worked for me… these are my methods. This is how I heal(ed) and I hope that there’s something in here that you can apply to your wounds so you can heal properly. But I’ve tried to let go of things in the past. I couldn’t because I didn’t take the time yet to deal with it and to heal from it. But now that I worked those things out in my head it became so easy to let it go. You know, if you step on glass and you look at your foot, you’ll see that little piece sticking out. When you pulled it out, it will seem like there’s nothing there. Sometimes when you put your finger on that cut you’ll feel that there’s still something there that you have to get out. If you ignore it, it will keep hurting you every time you walk or stand. That is not the time to let go. If you take the time to get the glass out of the wound, it will heal and you won’t feel a thing after. It might hurt and you might have to dig a little deeper to get to it, but once it’s out, it’s over. Take the time to dig a little deeper and the minute you reached the problem, deal with it, pull it out and let it go. Please share your thoughts/experiences in the comments. Or talk to me on Facebook or twitter à links in the sidebar. Or email me: Go to contact and fill in the contact form and press send. I’d love to hear from you. Don’t forget, say it with me: I’m a work in progress, just like everyone else!
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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