It’s been a while since I started writing and I would just throw out anything that bothered me. Why? Because I’m too concerned about what you might think; what anyone may think. I’m holding back and it’s something I’ve done a lot in my life and I don’t want to do that anymore.
I don’t want to show a part of myself while hiding the majority of that same part. I don’t know how to further explain that, you either understand what I mean or not. I’m sorry. Wait. Did I just apologize? Did I really just say ‘I’m sorry if you don’t understand what I feel?’ I don’t even know if it’s a good or a bad thing. Either way, I need to stop apologizing for what I feel. I am a complicated person with a lot of baggage and I’m trying my best to get through everything but apologizing for what I feel will not help me. I am guilty of apologizing for my feelings but I am so sick of it! I am me and I am not going to change because someone has a problem with it or doesn’t understand. I feel what I feel and my feelings are what they are because I/they have a reason to. I always put someone’s feelings before my own. I always felt like someone else deserved to feel what they felt more than me. This is in general. I’ve done this with almost everyone. Once it gets to the point where our feelings are out in the open and I feel like what I feel won’t be easy for you to hear, I stop talking. I hold it in and keep it to myself. I need to start putting my own feelings before anyone else’s feelings. Because I have to live with mine. I have to get through my baggage, not add more. You know what, I’m awesome. I’m not perfect, but I am awesome. I’m definitely a work in progress but I’m working on it and I don’t need anyone to tell me that what I feel is wrong. Maybe in their eyes it is, but in mine… they are the truth. So I am going to stop apologizing for what I feel and who I am and I’m going to keep working on myself and I’m going to continue to unpack my bags. That’s all I can do for now. Oh and by the way, you do know you’re awesome, right? Let me know what you think in the comments below. Or email me or click the buttons in the sidebar to go to my social media accounts Facebook/Twitter/Instagram. We’re all a work in progress and that’s more than OK. Embrace it because you are exactly where you need to be right now ;)
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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