I started writing with a whole new purpose. I started writing letters to my baby girl. I bought a beautiful notebook that will still look when the time comes that I'll give it to her.
In this notebook and through these letters I'm telling her how I look at her now. I tell her how her improvised songs make me happy and how I wish I could record them all. I tell her how no matter how I feel, when I see her dance I can't help but smile. I grew up not not really knowing how my mother looked at me. Times were difficult in our house and that drove us apart. The only thing I want for my babygirl when she's growing up is that she knows exactly how I look at her and how much I love her. I'm not planning on sugar coating everything and I will write down that things weren't always sunshine and rainbows but that that's alright. She has to know that none of that changes how I feel about her and that I will always stick by her no matter what happens. She needs to know all of that. When I became a mother I had such a strange idea of what a mother was that I was disappointed in myself for the longest time. Until I admitted to feeling disappointed, a mother close to me told me that my expectations were crazy. I want her to know (most of, not all!) the good and the bad. The moments where I want to run away but stayed. The moments she wanted to run but stayed... I want to give her this notebook when she's old enough. I want her to know about the little things that everyone forgets or never really talks about anymore. I honestly think this will be good for both of us. It helps me think more about our moments and it will one day help her see things from my point of view. Things she might not have agreed with. I love her and there's a reason that I call her my heart. I want her to know that reason. I want her to understand her mothers love! ♥️ And what better way to explain it to her then through letters? I write, that's what I do. It's what I've always done to explain my feelings so why change now?
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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