So much in my life is changing right now. So much that I sometimes don't know what to do with myself. Everything's on hold. I have so much to do but end up being too tired to actually start or if I start I stop halfway to get some air.
Everything that's been piling up has even pushed me to the point of wanting to stop all that I've been doing and just stay right where I am now. But I know that I'll regret it if I stop now. I'm so close. I am so close! It just takes patience and I have to keep going, I'm almost there... where I wanted to be ever since I found out I was pregnant. Even before that. This will make our lives better, why? Because it's something we can build on to make it our own. Because of all the extra stress I've pulled away from my friends and family. Mainly because I feel like I'm bothering people and because I don't want to complain. But it's in times like this that you find your support system, the people who have your back and don't think less of you for having a bad day, week, etc. I'm grateful for the people who help me pull through. Some of them probably don't even know they helped (are helping) me. But that's actually good because they weren't there because I felt low and needed their help. No they were there because they wanted to be. To those people that are always there for me, the real me, the one that isn't perfect; The one that isn't always as positive and happy as she wants to be; to them I want to say thank you! Thank you for letting me be myself. Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for helping me pull through. To be honest: My stress level is rising like crazy and I have no idea how to bring it down. I have a million things to do but every night I look back on my day to find out that I didn't do a single thing. I fall asleep at random moments during the week and if it wasn't for my babygirl I'd sleep through the whole week. I can't get up in the morning because I have no idea how... I want to give up on this thing that I'm working towards because I think my stress is all connected to it but deep down I know it's not. I think that's the least stressful part of my life right now. Thank you for giving me a reason to write when I feel like crawling under a rock. Thank you for letting me rant on and on about my 💩 I am grateful for my support system and I'm also grateful for my readers. Without you, Straight Thinking would probably no longer exist. I was able to deal with all the things I went through because I had a place to let it out. But that's not just what this blog is about. I hope that I can help you too if you're going through something. I hope that my way of figuring things out helps you figure things out in your life. Please don't hesitate to contact me. You know how and I'm here. Always 😊
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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