My life has been a rollercoaster these last few months. My emotions have taken over and I can't figure out where I should start to take that control back. For a while it didn't bother me but I'm tired of letting my emotions run my life. I'm just tired. I don't really feel like doing anything right now. I'm laying in bed and it's a little past noon (Ok, I'm also sick but that's besides the point)!
My house is a mess, it'll probably only take me less 30 minutes per room but it's hard to see where I should begin. My head is tired. My body is empty. I feel empty. All I ever do is keep my head up, trying to keep the sadness or pain out. I've been fighting some feelings for so long that when I saw someone yesterday I instantly started crying. Just seeing that face, even though that was the last person I wanted to talk to! My emotions took over and I had no say in the matter. I'm tired. I wish I could just turn it off for 24 hours and sleep (it being life and emotions and feelings and... me). I wish I could just reset my mind and start with a fresh pair of eyes and see these situations for what they are. There's something big about to happen which takes a lot of planning and which will cost me a lot of money. I know it will be worth it but right now, I hate the idea. All the things I have to do for it don't seem worth it. I know they are but what I feel and what I know are fighting again... again! I don't have anything to make this positive, that's not me. But that is how tired I am. Maybe I just need some serious sleep. Now that I think of it, that probably won't work because I've been having the craziest dreams. Some stranger tried to touch my hair in my dream and I got so mad... for what? I wouldn't ever get mad at that. Probably. Anyway... my emotions have taken over. I guess I'll let you know when I know how to turn this back around 😉
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AuthorMy passion is writing. I started writing stories when I was only 6 years old and I still do it today. Blogging is something I've been wanting to do for a long time, so here we are. Archives
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