Think about where you were 5 years ago. What did life look like? Who were your closest friends? Are they still here? The person you were dating, are you still with them? The views you had on life, are they still the same? What did you think your life would look like today? Did it all go how you thought it would?
For me, I was just starting. My life had just begun. I was still moving around to find a permanent place to raise my baby. I thought nothing could go wrong anymore. I thought everything I had been through was enough for at least the next 10 years. Sike! I thought I was happy when I turned 20. I thought life was as good as it was going to get. I settled into a life that I thought was good enough. Now, 5 years later, I realize how naive I was. I thought I needed a man to be happy, I thought I needed a lot of things to be happy. I needed things. Now I see that I needed myself to be happy. I needed to see the best in myself and I needed to accept myself and my life and my baggage and my pile of junk from the past to be happy. That's all I ever needed. Acceptance. I needed to see myself for who I was so I could become who I wanted to be. But look at me now, I've never been happier and I feel so much better than ever before. I'm not as naive as I was years ago. I'm getting stronger by the minute and I can feel that strenght whenever life hits me with something new. I'm growing every minute of every day and it's completely up to me to choose in what direction I grow. I'm looking for my way back to God. I'm studying and I'm working on making Him my guide in life. Why? Because I wasn't so good at figuring life out on my own after all. I'm just trying to make a better life for us in the future. I'm the only one that can do that. But I'm no longer disappointed when things happen differently than I expected. I'm just going with that flow and doing what feels right. Up until now it has worked in my favor. So guess what I'll be doing from now on?
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